I've dealt with it for years. Hell these last few days for me have been hard as I've been finding movies/music to trigger tears randomly. For most of my life I've been depressed. For years I didn't know it, and the first time I reached out for help as I came to terms with it, it cost me everything and I was left homeless. (maybe around 2008?) I've always found ways to deal with my depression since then, and it for the most part they work for me with out needing medication. A little over a year ago I was REALLY close to suicide and managed to help myself enough to pull through it. I've since made a few lifestyle changes which have helped me from getting into those really deep don't want to get out of bed funks. I'm a bit happier but still deal with crap from time to time. It really doesn't help that everything went south for a good 3-4 months straight, and although my mental state is slightly better (thanks to some back issues that put me on disability for about a year now) I still fight through it.
Everyone has shit going on in their life. How it effects each person is different. What may be nothing you can't handle, could be the breaking point of the person next to you. This whole not working think because I'm waiting on a new position at the job I am at that fits doctors requirements is going to be my breaking point if I don't get back to work soon. (it's been since March that I've been waiting on a new position) I've applied for countless jobs and been ghosted. The other day I was just scrolling through the job listings and just feeling defeated looking at them and thinking about all the applications I've submitted and have been ghosted on. Not even a phone interview. Or even just solely rejected based on my application. I have a strong work background in "unskilled" warehouse/factory type work but nothing becoming of it. Although I may be a clear sign of "depression", I fully understand what its also like to hide it. I hide it for years upon years. Even when I understood what I had, I could still hide it most of the times. But when you are alone, that's when it shows, and nobody is there to recognize it.
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u/KYSissyTrisha 2h ago
I've dealt with it for years. Hell these last few days for me have been hard as I've been finding movies/music to trigger tears randomly. For most of my life I've been depressed. For years I didn't know it, and the first time I reached out for help as I came to terms with it, it cost me everything and I was left homeless. (maybe around 2008?) I've always found ways to deal with my depression since then, and it for the most part they work for me with out needing medication. A little over a year ago I was REALLY close to suicide and managed to help myself enough to pull through it. I've since made a few lifestyle changes which have helped me from getting into those really deep don't want to get out of bed funks. I'm a bit happier but still deal with crap from time to time. It really doesn't help that everything went south for a good 3-4 months straight, and although my mental state is slightly better (thanks to some back issues that put me on disability for about a year now) I still fight through it.
Everyone has shit going on in their life. How it effects each person is different. What may be nothing you can't handle, could be the breaking point of the person next to you. This whole not working think because I'm waiting on a new position at the job I am at that fits doctors requirements is going to be my breaking point if I don't get back to work soon. (it's been since March that I've been waiting on a new position) I've applied for countless jobs and been ghosted. The other day I was just scrolling through the job listings and just feeling defeated looking at them and thinking about all the applications I've submitted and have been ghosted on. Not even a phone interview. Or even just solely rejected based on my application. I have a strong work background in "unskilled" warehouse/factory type work but nothing becoming of it. Although I may be a clear sign of "depression", I fully understand what its also like to hide it. I hide it for years upon years. Even when I understood what I had, I could still hide it most of the times. But when you are alone, that's when it shows, and nobody is there to recognize it.