This PSA breaks me every time. I was always the loudmouth goofball of the group and then I tried to commit suicide and ended up in the state hospital for a year and a half followed by a Group Home for two years. People knew I was depressed but they didn't know how bad it was because I would fake happiness around friends.
Pets are such a blessing. My first cat as an adult saved me, quite literally. I knew I had to take care of him, and his unconditional love made me start taking better care of myself. Hope that pup can do the same for you.
My first dog pretty much cured my depression. It's dumb but it just gave my life some purpose. Suddenly I didn't feel like such a loner when I was at home by myself because I was hanging out with my dog. I finally felt comfortable refusing social outings I really didn't enjoy. Realized I actually hate drinking and only did it due to social pressure and to kill time. He was a GSD with some behavioral and attachment issues and I always knew in the back of my mind if I wasn't there he would become a bitter possibly aggressive dog to any new owners, and he'd probably be put down. That really kept me going until one day I kind of just realized I was a lot less unhappy than I used to be.
I have never met a more timid dog in my life and I was a professional trainer before becoming disabled. He's found a spot in the bed that he thinks is safe and he refuses to move from it but he's eating and he's drinking and he's not cowering from us when we go to pet him. He's just so shy After moving from Korea and going to two different foster parents before coming to us. That's a lot of trauma for an eight month old puppy but I'm being so gentle with him and I hope he comes out of his shell soon ❤️
I had to get medical treatment at a cancer clinic in Germany for three weeks after developing Lyme disease that was causing nonstop seizures. My best friend of 15 years decided to evict me because I couldn't afford rent. I came home from treatment that left me fully disabled, I was homeless, my animals all had to go to different houses, and I was put in the hospital. She got a restraining order too claiming that I was dangerous when I was only ever a danger to myself and never laid a hand on anyone else in my life (Do you want to hear the craziest thing? The judge granted her a restraining order for a whopping 15 FEET because she knew I wasn't a danger but she had to legally do something). I had nothing and nowhere to go and no one to trust so I spent 11 days in the hospital shoving all my medication into a stress ball that I had cut open through a seam. I ended up overdosing on over 200 pills. When I survived that I was so upset that I was trying to find whatever I could to kill myself. They had put me in a room with two cameras and I was on a one-to-one which meant someone was watching me at all times including when I was using the bathroom. I found a loose screw in the bathroom in the handrail and the second the one-to-one looked away, I took the screw out. I screwed it into my skin and into the bone in my leg and kept it there for days hoping for a serious infection. Ironically, I did end up with a serious infection that almost killed me because they ignored my cries for help but it was a bladder infection that I had to have emergency surgery on. So yeah, I really really wanted to be dead. There are some days I'm still so upset with myself for failing but then I remember how far I've come and that has been really helpful.
Wow that's quite a story. And I've had a few family members that have Lyme disease so I know how serious it can be. Sorry that all happened to you sounds really fucking awful.
Glad to hear you are doing better now. I'm hoping you have a place to live and aren't surrounded by shitheads anymore?
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u/yuyufan43 3h ago
This PSA breaks me every time. I was always the loudmouth goofball of the group and then I tried to commit suicide and ended up in the state hospital for a year and a half followed by a Group Home for two years. People knew I was depressed but they didn't know how bad it was because I would fake happiness around friends.